Friday, November 20, 2009

filling the bucket...

It's been a hectic week. Meetings and pissing matches (if you will)...stressing about this and that. Today is FRIDAY and it's funny that this epiphany comes at the end of the week rather than at the beginning...would haev saved a LOT of ...complaining from me:-). Today I realized with one of those "I could have had a V8" moments that none of the stressing, none of the bad thoughts and bad words will really take me where I want to go, we all pray in our own way and my prayers have been more in the line of whinings this past week so first I offer apologies and THEN I give thanks for the ability to hear beyond what I see! that goes along with this ever growing hope that I will one day be someone my granddaughters can reminisce about "I remember Grandma, she said what she meant and meant what she said!" It's funny really, I remember back when I was sitting in the back seat of my Aunt Dorothy's car...she drove a big old Oldsmobile and I used to marvel at what I in my youth saw as amazing dexterity and confidence as she drove down the road behind the wheel of that big car. I literally had confidence that Aunt Dorothy knew everything...I told her this just a few years ago, she must have been about 28 or 30 at the time but she's now in her 70's and just as beautiful and graceful as she was then...she chuckled at me and tousled my hair (like if I was still IN the back seat of her olds) and said "well, what do you think NOW? do you think I really DID know everything?" We laughed together and she said "remember this...that bucket gets filled one drop at a time and before you know it you're full and it's up to YOU what you're full of!"

I'm listening to Christina Aguilera's song right first it sounded smaltzy (haha is that a WORD?) but here's a part I think works:

And everywhere we go

The sun won't always shine
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

'cause we are beautiful no matter what they say

Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today ...

I hope my bucket's filled with clear cold refreshing water from one of my favorite rivers!

this river picture came from a friend of old Celilo Falls picture

Have a good weekend all, I have some new tea I'm going to try out and my grandbabies are on their way to visit me!!!!


Anonymous said...

Have a great weekend! Enjoy the grand kids!

Alice in Wonderland said...

Shawna, thank you for this piece! It was so funny! WE are having terrible weather here at the moment...gale force winds and rain! WE keep getting power cuts too,so my computer is connected to the mains, but the battery power doesn't last long. So, I'm trying to get around as many people as I can, just to leave a comment, and hope that you are all well. These have lasted for the past three days, and there is still worse to come! So I hope that this doesn't last much longer.
Big Hugs, Have a great week-end!

bonequinhoda bic said...

I loved the dropping fosset, this one really made me laugh, and about rivers, the fado song that I posted in my blog talks just about that, a river. Later on I´ll translate the liricks.
Have a great weekend Z.

Betty said...

Thank you for passing by , just so you know i missed you!
Hope you had a great weekend.
hugs hugs

Bhavesh Chhatbar said...

Have fun with the grandkids!

Garden Lizard

Betty said...

Hi Shawna,
I have a present for you on my blog.
Please stop by and pick it up.
hugs hugs

Betty said...

Shawna, how are you doing?
You have an award on my blog. Maybe you didn't notice it.
hugs hugs

ЯANdOM ЯAWR ◊ said...

I wonder what my bucket is full of. Hm. I’m guessing it’s empty....

This was nice to read.

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