Friday, December 3, 2010

discretion IS the better part of valor

It's been a week from hell - I won't lie to you. Crushing disappointments, moments of forgotten grief from multiple losses (the month of November), regular daily stress, continued frustration with "the wheel" and the rest of the sad stories...

One of the days this week, I had one of those flashes of anger - you know the ones, so white hot there's nothing in you but wilted exhaustion when its done? I almost threw in the towel - said "I'm done, you take it from here" and walked away from my job...I almost said things to people that should never be said, and I almost did many things this week all because of this stupid emotional turmoil churning away...

I didn't do those things. I bit my lip and put down my head...I walked away and went to the copier instead of speaking...I listened to someone else's story and to my surprise found myself crying on HER behalf...

Today I got some good news. News that actually brought home that saying "discretion is the better part of valor" THANK YOU for not letting me say those words...for not throwing in the towel and walking off this job...THANK YOU FOR THIS JOB and thank you for not letting me LOOSE!

I am grateful:-) IT'S A BRAND NEW DAY



5 comments:

Grandma K said...

I'm glad things are better. Thank you for the beautiful photo. We don't get snow (except for today a year ago!). We all have to remember there will be a new day.

BB said...

Dear Shawna,can i say but_I love you and I love you :)
We survive,that´s true,but quite often we truly live to share the beauty from snowflakes and the new dawn that awakes.
It doesn´t snow here on my little corner of the world,so how could I see such beauty if it wasn´t for you ?
Thankyou for this.

Betty Manousos @ CUT AND DRY said...

Aww Shawna, thanks for this inspiring post!
I love it!
Great saying and pictures!!!

Have a wonderful week ahead my friend!

Bear hugs!
B xx

Christiejolu said...

Good for you! You were the better person! Beautiful pictures!

Alice in Wonderland said...

Shawna, I know just how you feel. Sometimes throwing in the towel seems the easiest way out, but just stick with it. Things have a way of working themselves out....sometimes in ways that you couldn't imagine.

Loved your photo's ....as always!
Big hugs!